i felt sad that i was unable to spend part of my day with you. it was indeed the first summer new york late night where i was truly possessed by the spirit of "new york in the summer." a sensation of the body and mind i remember from many summer visits and past lives here. a sensation which has been eluding me thus far this summer. i don't know if i can explain it properly: a sleeplessness or rather a feeling of expected sleeplessness, a sharp mind, a vaguely tired body where the hotness of the air feels thick and as though it has permeated your every molecule, a curiousity and a boldness which allows you to wander into any open door or garden party you happen to pass on the street, a willingness to abandon whatever schedule you might have to go wherever anyone suggests almost at once, even if its georgia (in bonnie's case) or a mall in new jersey (in my case), and a complete abandonment of one's winter shyness (you were right on this one).